I'm finding myself torn right this moment.
Moving on this year means that I can't keep going over my relationship with Leah. Heck, if nothing else, seeing post-after-post about Leah would dangerously feed the ego of a woman that doesn't deserve it. My intention in starting this blog was to provide a place for me to write about my experiences as I move forward.
But part of moving forward is making sure that this sort of thing never happens again. If Leah ever attempted to re-enter my life, I should be secure in my memory of our relationship. If someone else tried to play the same games as did she, again I should be able to say "not again". In the worst case, if this all means being alone this year, at those times when I am hit with loneliness I need to remember why this is better than the alternative.
Lord knows I can write a bunch of lengthy tales of Leah, ranging from how she stalked me until I agreed to date her . . . to her attempt at justifying her parents' racism. I run the risk, though, of turning this into a "let me bitch and complain about Leah" blog.
I need to make a decision here. I welcome hearing opinions.
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